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Sunday, November 27, 2011

A Random Thought

Just felt a bit emo this evening due to going without food for almost the whole day.
Sometimes this happens to me if I don't eat for long hours, I tend to feel emo. Then I'll be like a girl on period having major mood swings very easily but instead of being angry, I get sad and I tend to find reasons for being sad. But once I filled my stomach, I'll be back to normal again.

This evening was one of those times for being that way and it got me to think random thoughts that make me feel sad.

What came to mind was this:
Oftentimes I get people asking me why am I always alone? One asked that I'm always seen going to events alone and start mingling around with different groups (which is a big improvement from what I was last time. I don't even mingle). Another told me stop being by myself always and start calling people out (which I don't normally. I usually try asking one or two persons when I have extra passes and such and if they're not free, I start giving away through social media).
Honestly, I don't have a full answer to that. I don't even know why I'm that way. But most probably, the biggest factor would be not getting along with my family when I was a teenager and having a nervous breakdown.

But then again, I guess after moving out from my family, I started to adapt to strike a balance. I tend to favor being alone at times while wanting to hang out with some good friends at other times. I don't know. Sometimes I'm blinded.

At other times, even when I feel like I wanna hang out with people but ended up alone, I grew so accustomed to being alone, that I had psyched myself into liking it.
This do pose as a problem sometimes as I feel awkward when I started hanging out with people.

If this post doesn't make any sense, well, that's because my thoughts are all jumbled up and I'm just typing away nonsensically to relieve myself. LOL. So don't mind me.

6 comments:

:: - LoLLy - :: said...

Wow ~ Seldom see your random post here ~ =P

Kelvin 'finalkt3' Tan said...

LOL. You seldom read my blog already. My last job made me do a lot of emo posts. haha

Isaac Tan said...

you're cool la bro. Don't always think on the negative aspect of things :) you're awesome especially when there's some Johnnie Walker in you! lol..

Keep Walking! :P

Kelvin 'finalkt3' Tan said...

LOL. As I mentioned, I didn't eat almost for the whole day and the problem is if I'm distracted, I won't feel hungry also and start feeling emo.

After eating yesterday, I felt so much better and even went watching a soccer match with strangers instead.

Merryn said...

Must remember to ALWAYS feed Kelvin :P

Kelvin 'finalkt3' Tan said...

Ya, and some alcohol too. LOL.