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Sunday, August 14, 2011

Of Loyalty & Friendship

Oftentimes I find myself wondering who ARE my friends? Do I even have any?
Due to my childhood life, I have grown accustomed to a life of a loner and there are only few people whom I get along well with. Hence, many people deem me as unfriendly if not a quiet person.

Of recent years, I started having a life of fun seeking, going to events and mingling around in parties. But of late, I'm unable to do so due to me getting back to reality and taking on a full time job that's really taxing on my soul. So now, here I am back to square one again thinking about life.

So again I find myself asking the question of friendship. To tell the truth, I don't think I had any friends that I'm close with at all for now. Many people in my circle of friends probably know me because I give out free passes to movie screening, concert tickets, party invites and I give them out through my social media network whereby I'm a friend with benefit, isn't it? For once, I wish I get people giving me the passes. LOL.

Not to say I don't get any from my friends, I do. Sometimes, at times like these, I just tend to overthink and rant nonsensically because I'm deprived of a fun life with this job I have. I'm just dead tired and I'm just angry with myself for allowing myself to make such decisions in life that brings me down. I don't even know what the hell I think and feel anymore.

4 comments:

Isaac Tan said...

relax, everything will turn out fine eventually

Kelvin 'finalkt3' Tan said...

That's a bit too optimistic in this current bleak situation.

KimberlyMay said...

I do feel that in each decision we make in life, is the best decision made at that particular point of time. So, I don't think that you should feel angry for making such a decision that causing you to be "friendless". Life's tough. Hang in there!!

Kelvin 'finalkt3' Tan said...

Thanks for your thoughts, KimberlyMay