Tuesday, March 21, 2006

A Sense of Belonging

I've managed to survived driving to work for 2 days now. Frankly speaking, I am starting to head towards one of my greatest fear. Getting addicted to driving when I'm still kind of a reckless driver.

I don't know why, I always have the urge to drive a little faster. If I drive slowly, I feel kind of bored and feel tired of driving. When I was driving from my hometown (Ipoh) back to the big city of Petaling Jaya/Kuala Lumpur, there was a time on the road that I felt so bored, I just don't feel like driving and my father was complaining away at the passenger side on what am I doing and concentrate on my driving.

Well, just as I have expected that having an auto car feel's like I'm driving one of those bumper cars that I used to drive at funfairs. When I was young, I used to drive the bumper cars not to bump people, but to avoid getting bumped. I know it's strange, but I just don't like the bumping feeling and was superb in avoiding being bumped at.

Anyway, I'm still sick of working. I just feel like I wanna drive all day or sleep my days away. Alas, work still beckons me. Still trying to establish my own business but had no idea still on what to do and have no idea how to establish it. Maybe I should just quit my job, get one in Ipoh and start staying with my parents again. I'm feeling rather bored living in the big city. I just don't feel I belong here anymore. Oh well, only time will reveal the outcome of my precarious journey through life.