Thursday, December 01, 2005

The Crumbling Days of My Life

I can't stop thinking about how long will I be able to live before my life and my world start to cave in on me. It certainly looks like it's going that way. When my father came for a visit, that was strike one. Couldn't stand being with him much. For some reason, my stress level always go up high when it comes to him coming for a visit. Every night when he's around, no matter how tired I get I just can't sleep till the wee hours of the morning. I started to worry about a lot of matters when he's around even when the problem does not even relate to him. Good thing his visits are only for a short period of time.

Nowadays, I tend to worry about tenants,not on getting somebody to stay because for some reason there's ample of people staying with me at the moment, but rather on tenants behavior and how much can they afford. I don't mind giving them a price which is affordable to them but how am I gonna get that past my parents? On top of that will I be able to juggle my expenses to fit that? I just don't know what to think.

Another major thing that keeps me on the ropes is my job. Recently, there is a lot of major problems which I am unable to solve because it's not my field of expertise. Printer problems are one of them and with printer problems season now, I just can't seem to cope with it because I can't fix printers when it's hardware problem and I don't have spare printers. The worse is bar code printers which is totally giving major problems.

My life seems to be climaxing and I'm just awaiting for the finale to arrive. Wonder if it's really soon.