But seeing as to how many times I was not invited, his remark has begun to make me wonder of my relationship with my friends. It made me wonder, what was the reason that I was not invited to my FRIENDs wedding. Is it because I'm a single guy with no proper job hence they figured that I wouldn't be able to afford a gift for them? Or is it because they were angry with me over something? Was it because I was never close to them at all and all those many times we hung out together were merely a facade? Then, why hang out together in the first place? This is the part that I just don't get it at all. I was even invited to a former colleague's wedding whom I'm not very close to (I don't have much time to talk to her at all). But the surprising thing is she invited me, even though it falls on a working day, was held in another state, yet she still wanted me to attend. In fact, she wanted the whole office to attend jokingly suggested the idea of a holiday but in the end none of us could make it since we had to work.
But I was thinking what gives, friends not wanting to invite me? People who don't know me well invited me? This is very confusing. Well, invited or not I don't care less, cause I have been to many weddings in my lifetime plus I don't need to get a wedding present for them. hehe :P
But it does incur a curious inquisition in my mind, how deep are my friendships? I think on this matter I don't mind being completely alone since it was my own fault for being an introvert. Would greatly aspire to do my works in the shadow. Wouldn't even mind not having any commendations just as long as it doesn't get creditted by someone else.
Hmm, maybe I should change my nick to 'Shadow Member'. 'Shadow Member', I do like the sound of that. :D